Instant gratification takes too long. — Carrie Fisher (1956-)

Why it would be cool … fantasy having to do with my Amazon wishlist!

May 20th, 2012 by Elisabeth

It’s relatively early on a Sunday morning and I’m sitting in a chilly hotel room in OakBrook, Illinois getting ready to move to another hotel in a bit.And of course, instead of actually doing what I SHOULD be doing, I’m reading book reviews on Amazon. I’ve just added a few books to my wishlist. And although in one way, I think that having wishlists on blogs and escort sites are somewhat tacky, I REALLY like getting surprises and gifts and so I will always have a wishlist on my blog and/or website.It’s just part of the little greedy girl that is in my heart. Of course, that “greedy little girl” part is right next to the “hooker with a heart of gold” portion and what all else that is a part of my being.SO … it is with my rather needy “I wanna” heart that I’m going to share a fantasy. I like getting surprises. And I also like big surprises, which does happen at times. But right now, I would ADORE for someone to go nuts and get me several hundred dollars of “stuff” from my wishlist.How wonderful would it be to come home from Chicago and have waiting a HUGE box of books, perfumes, a stereo, bicycle and God knows what else just waiting at the front door.Yes, I know that if you’re reading this that you’re thinking two things: While rolling your eyes you’re thinking that who WOULDN’T want that? :) And then you might be thinking that this isn’t a very attractive thing to write.Oh wait. And a third. You might just take a peak at my wishlist and just see what items I’m thinking of.With all of this being said, I’m guessing that wanting a HUGE box of goodies probably stems from me missing the Christmas days from my childhood. I remember that my grandparents would have so many presents under the Christmas tree that once the gifts were opened, we would be in piles of crumbled tissue paper, ribbons, bows, Christmas paper and it would be so joyous.During certain years, my brother and I would be so excited that we would get up at 2 AM and see if Santa had arrived yet. When I remember those memories, I always smile.And as one becomes an adult, things change so much. Most of the time, it’s nice to get gifts during the holidays but the gifts don’t seem to have quite the same meaning. Instead of twenty gifts under the tree, there might be three. Maybe four. Sometimes, one.So please don’t think too poorly of me when I like to fantasize about having a humongous girth of presents sent in my direction. And I have to admit, for whatever reason, the gifts that patrons have given me seem to mean so much more.I guess because it’s something that they don’t have to do, or feel obligated to do.A few months back, I came home from a long day of errands and of just being unappreciated, and there was a box waiting for me at the front door. I thought that maybe it was something that was left at the wrong house. And I looked inside.Inside, there was a violin. I couldn’t breath. It was exciting. Now, we’re not speaking of an expensive instrument. Quite the contrary. BUT … the violin was something that I had desired for a very long time. I played the instrument throughout my childhood and I wanted something to strum during the day and just fiddle. And there it was.Can you imagine the feelings and curiosity that I had for the stranger who gave me that? A similar thing happened last Valentine’s Day when a friend left a gift bag near the door of my incall. Inside was a gift card and a small book by Anais Nin, “Little Birds”. He had written inside the book.What he didn’t know was that small act of kindness was the ONLY kindness that I received that day. So while the jaded part of me will tell myself that Valentine’s Day is a crappy holiday and a headache for those of use who are single by choice .. he made that time for me very special. And I will ALWAYS have that book and cherish it.So here is my random post and thoughts for the day. Heck, I need to get back to packing my stuff and getting out of here and heading down the road.I’m rather behind on posting blog topics. I’ll be getting better about that soon enough.I am planning an epic quest type of summer and with that, blog postings and some REALLY big writing surprises (with pictures, too!) are in my plans for the next few months.Sending everyone reading this the best of wishes!Elisabeth